meditations of a blueberry

Eyes closed, I look up to the sky, breathing in the last wisps of summer while I taste the promise of Fall on the tip of my tongue. I feel the last warmth of the sun's rays rest on my face as summer promises to return again. The breeze gently caresses my cheek as it continues on past, swirling the falling golden leaves at my feet. My babies' laughter and screams waft into my ears like a melodious symphony from a master musician and I smile as I feel a tear roll down my cheek. I stand at the precipice of the next phase of my life. Goodbye birth. Goodbye babies. What has so far defined me for the last 7 years is changing. And with that, comes the realization that I too must change. And yet. And yet, I feel stagnant. Unable to push forward. Frozen in fear at taking the next step. The first step. Uncertainty abounds. And thanks to an unwelcome resident in my brain, I am unsure if this fear and uncertainty is due to its grip on me or not. But no. I r...

There is something refreshing about the fall in the mountains. I can't quite put my finger on it, but after being in BC for 4 days, I feel lighter. Like all of my worries and concerns just floated away with the morning fog or was washed away by the mountain showers. While I agree that a lot of rain anywhere can be depressing, a little mountain rain is nothing like rain in Alberta. Mountain rain refreshes my soul. It washes away my insecurities. In the fall, the mornings are usually foggy; however, by noon it has usually lifted. In that time, the sun's rays shine through the fog as if from heaven themselves, as if their touch turns the leaves from green to gold.  The gold and copper leaves of fall remind me that even in death there is beauty. Here are a few pictures from my drive through the mountains: The trip to BC was fabulous. E cooperated for the drive (for the most part), and we made it there in record time--6 hours with one 20 minute stop for lunc...

We are all packed and ready to get on the road first thing tomorrow! I can't wait to see the beautiful colours and smell the crisp BC mountain air.  There is just something magical about the fall in the mountains. The light seems to dance among the colours, and the air itself changes to something soul refreshing. I am hoping to get some good pictures of E this time; now that I have FINALLY figured out my camera settings! Actually, there will be lots of picture-taking. My sister has asked me to take some maternity photos of her and her fiance, and I couldn't be more honoured. I am not a professional by any sense of the word, and the fact that she wants to share those moments with me is touching. I have a few ideas in my head, and I really hope the sun cooperates for them! Hopefully, I will get something fantastic for her and share it here for you. E and I are actually heading to BC for my sister's "Mother Blessing" ceremony. A good friend of mine who...