meditations of a blueberry

Just missing two of our team! So proud of everyone. I have hit the wall. It's been four months of running and fundraising. Four months of being perpetually busy. Four months of neglecting my own spiritual needs in order to meet my goals. And, finally, the wall has emerged and I ran face first into it. And, it hurts. My relationships are floundering, my mental stability is not so stable, and my parenting is not as gentle nor as patient as I would like it to be. I am frustrated, to say the least. I love what my body has shown me these past months. I love how much I have raised. But there are ten of us mamas raising money. Ten of us mamas who are putting our hearts and souls into this venture. Amidst the fundraising, we're all on our own weight loss and fitness journeys which is always an emotionally fueled journey. What happens when you put that many women into the same room? Eventually, problems arise. And so, here we are. Trying to be adults about the situation...

http://www.runfergus.com/2011/11/dressing-for-winter-running.html My journey has started. I have officially been training for my half-marathon for one week. I plan to blog every week or two about my journey. I'm anticipating it being an emotional, and a physical journey. I can not run well, but I will be a runner. Last Saturday, we had our training kick-off. We got to meet our trainers, mentors, and other team mates. We got our training schedule, and I must admit that I may have had a mini heart attack when I read it. Yikes. I'm not sure if I have ever exercised as much as I will be in the next few months--not even in high school during basketball or track season.  I must admit that I am a little scared. My body is not the shape nor size of a runner's body. But I can do this. I WILL do this. I'm determined. For my boys, and for myself.  After meeting everyone, we went for a group run. It was only 30 minutes, but it was hard. I was slow. I felt so completely out ...